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oh my heck! can you believe that i have only a week left in the mtc? i can't! i cry almost every time my teachers mention it. yes, i'm pathetic. the week before last, shi laoshi was interviewing me and said, "you're leaving soon. it's so exciting." and i burst out in tears. then i told the story to qian laoshi and cried again. freak man, i'm more emotional than i thought. i feel pretty unprepared, but i guess that's normal. liu dixiong, a member of our branch presidency from taiwan, yesterday told me that my mandarin is better than most sisters and that i'll be great out there. i know i'll survive but i want to excel. i can't handle being okay at mandarin, i want to melt faces in taiwan. i think that more than anything i need to better rely on the lord and better accept his timing. we all know, though, that i struggle with feeling dependent and with patience.
the trc/lrc this week was interesting. i'm grateful for my experience there. we were assigned to room two. we knock on the door to start the language practice portion (we're supposed to discuss our day to day and plan a p-day and goals and a lesson with a member). in the room is a brother with parents from asia and his girlfriend who speaks no mandarin. we start and they stare blankly, so we ask if they know the scenario. nope. we explain and begin again. the guy was a jerk! most of the volunteers help us with the language and make the trc/lrc a learning place. this guy laughed when we spoke wrong or said, "you wouldn't say it that way!" i was so mad. so then he asks what we'll be teaching him later. we're supposed to teach them as if they are members and rely on the spirit to meet there needs. i did not feel like meeting his needs at all!! we told him that we could teach whatever they wanted. he said, "lesson 3" which he knows we don't study in detail or prepare to teach in the mtc. our faces must have said something, he followed with, "what? you haven't learned it." i'm fuming!!! we tell him we're prepared to teach lesson one and he says "i want to hear lesson 3." so, we leave the room to prepare to teach and my companion and qian laoshi can tell i'm ticked . i told qian what happened and he went into protector mode which is so funny to me. he asked if we wanted him to talk to him and we said, "do what you think is best." so he went and corrected the guy. we prayed before teaching and in my heart i plead with the lord to help me have charity, i lack it too often. so we go back and teach and it was amazing! we ended up talking about missionary work and the testimonies role. i used scriptures i didn't know i knew the location of. the spirit was definitely there. at one point i said, "as we come to know the savior, we change. we recognize others as his children and want them to have the happiness he provides." my heart changed, i loved both this brother and his girlfriend. i am so so so grateful to know that when you seek the spirit, he is there! little girls, prepare to serve missions and PRAY all the time!
besides that other things that have gone on are... sheri dew spoke last night. she was so great! she talked about the power of influence and how as latter-day saints we have a duty to use our influence for good. it was really great. i admire her a lot. maybe one day i can be a sheri dew but with a husband, meaning i'd have a banging career, personal relationships with g.a.'s and an eternal companion.
well, i'm out of time! wo feichang ai nimen!
zeng!